Age does not beget wisdom

I had always hoped that as I get older I would suddenly know everything, not care what people think, say wise things and behave in a serene manner.

It hasn't happened. I still have foot in mouth disease, still feel that vulnerable moment when you think you haven't worn the right dress, said the right thing and how do we actually define what is right anyway?

Perhaps the word wisdom is wrong and needs replacing with age begets the term stuff it, this is what I am and I have to deal with it so so do you!

I am not a rural person, I need concrete

Fighting hayfever, waterfilled nose and lungs, I realise, (I am a slow learner), that I need to live in the concrete jungle. I adore the new green of trees and leaves, the paperthin blossom and the soft wild rye grass fields but they reach out to my nose and I quickly wilt.